In Mourning
As shadows envelope the world, my mind slips back in time.
As twilight steals the day away, I reminisce and sigh.
For days gone by are here no more, and to here they shall never return.
What's gone is gone, what's dead is dead, so shall we never learn?
Embrace today as if it were your last, never again to take a breath.
Yet remember that tomorrow will come, and with it may come regret.
Though you live today without a care, beware of tomorrow's dawn;
For in its new light, old things shine true, forever to haunt us all.
I mourn the many times I have stumbled and lead others astray
For my own quests for self fulfillment have left a soul-shaped grave.
I apologize for my mistakes and everything else I have done
Be it right or wrong, fair or foul, one day I will answer for them all.
I mourn the fact that I cannot say, "It was not me that did this, Sir!"
For He can see and try my heart and test my very soul.
Alas, I am saved, for He that judges also loves me extremely so,
More love He gives than I do dream could ever touch the world in whole.
And I still live as if this were my very last breathe, yet neither reckless, nor afraid,
But calculating and seeking guidance so I will not go astray.
Today I may not feel the joy I did in times gone by
But in the end I can stand before Him and proclaim in truth on high,
"T'was me, Sir, who did those things, but never more shall I do again.
I saw my error and turned away, and left them where they died.
My heart is clean, as You have made it so with Your love.
Accept this gift of my life as payment for Your blessing so richly bestowed.
I cannot return the love You have given me, for I am only a man,
But I can be used as a beacon for You, to share this love with all."
And now I turn to you with open arms in prayer and say,
"Join me in this place where we can live without regret,
Not worring about the days gone by, the troubles that we made,
For we are one with Him who loves and gathers back the stray."
And we shall mourn what we have done and weep with joyous tears,
For all that lies behind us is gone as if it were never there.
I was inspired on Saturday, October 05, 2002
