And These Feelings That I Have Scare Me
But what I see scares me,
And what I know scares me,
Each day I face scares me,
And I'm scared that it will all scar me.
I can feel her here beside me
As I lay my head down to weep,
And she lifts it up and wipes away the tears
Without ever knowing I'm afraid.
I am oblivious to my own feelings
As I am to those she keeps inside.
I can't help but panic
And stand alone in the dark.
I can't see where I'm going
And I can't feel the way.
When she's here, I feel safe.
When she speaks, I feel calm.
When she touches me, I melt.
When she leaves me, I die.
Together we don't know the direction;
Apart, I am lost even more.
Not knowing she'll be there scares me,
Not knowing how she cares scares me more.
And these feelings that I have scare me.
I was inspired on Saturday, December 28, 2002
Waiting, Hoping
I sit and I ponder,
I sit and I wait.
But waiting does nothing;
It does not bring her closer to me.
I wait with Hope, though I know better.
I should leave now, before I lose Hope,
But that Hope I speak of still stands,
And I still wait for her to come.
Even as my eyelids grow heavy
And my mind blurs with weariness, I wait
There is still a chance...
There is still something...
But then there is always Hope
And the knowledge that it brings:
In three days she will return,
And in three days I can end my wait.
Until then I will sit without tiring,
Manning my post as I am now,
And will watch for any sign
That she has come back to me.
I was inspired on Sunday, December 22, 2002
Confusing
I don't know exactly what to do,
Guess you can call it a dance:
Keeping myself within the bounds
Set forth, but unknown by myself.
How far is too far, how far is not far enough?
What can I do to show how I feel?
Continuing in my childish ways
And hoping you can see through it all.
I can't just say how I feel when I'm around you,
I can barely open my mouth to speak.
So please take these stupid hints
And show me if you feel the same,
This would make it much easier on me,
And I need all the help I can get;
After all, you aren't the only loser out there,
There's one sitting right here, dreaming.
I was inspired on Monday, December 16, 2002
